30th October 2011, 2325hrs
25 hours from now, God willing, I will be checking in at the hospital. And at 0900hrs on 1 Nov 2011, by His will, I will be meeting my baby. My fourth C-section.
Truth be told, I am extremely nervous. I can go on and on, on the many different ways how things could go wrong. What if I never wake up? What if tonight is my last night at home? It doesn't help when the husband sulks when I am melancholic like this. What if this is to be my last night with him? He's sleeping upstairs tonight, and my youngest is not feeling well - must be something she ate, diarrhea and vomiting. I am too lazy to climb u the stairs, too sad too angry too worried to make a good company. Or even to be a wife and mother. All I want is to be by myself and wallow in the dread.
What if I don't wake up at all?
Am I ready to leave? No, for thousands of millions of reasons - all selfish in nature.
My blood test results turn out to be okay, no diabetic.
We went for check up on Friday and baby's weight can be anywhere between 3 to 3.5 Kg, his 'age' can be anywhere between 36 to 40 weeks with a +/- of 22 days.
Doctor feels the baby is still high up in the uterus and so not a case of concern (for me to go into labor).
I have a dozen or so people, strangers included who would swear that I am carrying a boy. At the same time, a good number of people would bet on a girl, Dr Suhaimi included. I guess, we now have just one more day to find out, don't we?
My sister came over on deepavali, bringing with her what I would be eating during confinement. I think. Have everyting all set now. Just waiting for the baby to arrive and I live long enough to play mother to it.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Week 36
Today is 19 Oct 2011. I am 11 days away from D-day. Eeeeeeeps!
Had blood glucose test done this morning - am still waiting for the results. Hopefully the readings are normal. I should get the unofficial result by today, Dr Joy said she would call.
I have decided not to go to office today. It aches when I walk, and the tummy is always doing the tightening routine. Baby's movements may not be in the form of quick jabs and kicks anymore, but each motion is more painful. I know it is getting cramped in there and doesn't provide for much manouevering. It sure is painful. Maybe it's the age, maybe it's the fact that the womb has been cut one 3 times, the pain is more felt now than before.
During the hospital visit, Dr Suhaimi accidentally mentioned that I would be getting a burger instead of a hot dog. Sheesh! Didn't I say NOT to tell me the gender?
Had blood glucose test done this morning - am still waiting for the results. Hopefully the readings are normal. I should get the unofficial result by today, Dr Joy said she would call.
I have decided not to go to office today. It aches when I walk, and the tummy is always doing the tightening routine. Baby's movements may not be in the form of quick jabs and kicks anymore, but each motion is more painful. I know it is getting cramped in there and doesn't provide for much manouevering. It sure is painful. Maybe it's the age, maybe it's the fact that the womb has been cut one 3 times, the pain is more felt now than before.
During the hospital visit, Dr Suhaimi accidentally mentioned that I would be getting a burger instead of a hot dog. Sheesh! Didn't I say NOT to tell me the gender?
Monday, October 17, 2011
Week 35 - 17 Oct 2011
I am now two weeks away from D-day.
Things are all set - the room is ready, the hospital bag is ready, appointments with OT and masseur made, the necessary medicinal plants are all thriving well around the house. Recipes collected and the basic dry ingredients (anchovies, black pepper) all stocked up. I am good.
Was at the hospital just now. Baby's size is as per estimated week, plus minus a few days except for the stomach size. The baby's stomach size is as if it is 38 weeks. Weight estimation is 3kg. In two weeks, it would be 3.4kg. Now, that's a bit too big for my size.
We havent done a blood glucose level test yet. To rule out big-baby-due-to-diabetic-condition, that test is imperative. so i will be going this weekend.
Things are all set - the room is ready, the hospital bag is ready, appointments with OT and masseur made, the necessary medicinal plants are all thriving well around the house. Recipes collected and the basic dry ingredients (anchovies, black pepper) all stocked up. I am good.
Was at the hospital just now. Baby's size is as per estimated week, plus minus a few days except for the stomach size. The baby's stomach size is as if it is 38 weeks. Weight estimation is 3kg. In two weeks, it would be 3.4kg. Now, that's a bit too big for my size.
We havent done a blood glucose level test yet. To rule out big-baby-due-to-diabetic-condition, that test is imperative. so i will be going this weekend.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Week 32+
I definitely am very pregnant now with 4 more weeks to go before the C-date i.e 1/11/11.
It sure is worrying though to have people (and a lot of them too), look at my tummy and go cluck their tongue, looks like its going to be earlier than 1 November, they said.
According to the doctor, my actual due date is 17/11/11. But because it is a planned C, he penciled me in two weeks earlier. According to the Ultrasound scans, the baby is at 32-33 weeks of age, in terms of size and weight. The thing is, I couldn’t remember the first day of last menstruation and so 17/11/11 is calculated based on a date that I just guessed. As far as ultrasounds go, I am actually just a small chick, at 4’10”. Below average really. My hubby isn’t that tall either. Between the two of us, we produce small babies. And so I wonder, the maths in ultrasound machines are based on the average size of what babies? The world’s? Or non-asians? What if it is the average of Caucasian babies? Then at 2kg weight, my baby is actually older than 33 weeks! Then my due date really is earlier than 17/11/11 and so the C should have been done earlier than 1/11/11! Eeeeeeeeps! As if I don’t already have enough worries on my mind.
I feel contractions now, short sporadic ones, but painful still, as less-than-a-minute as they may be. The baby’s movement is less jerky due to less space, but more painful. I love to feel his knees and feet and push them back in when they potrude out from my belly. I find the baby’s movement a great comfort, reassuring.
I have bought most things now. Mattress, clothes, etc – for baby and me.
And so now we count the days, and wait, and we pray that the estimation date is a good intelligent guess.
It sure is worrying though to have people (and a lot of them too), look at my tummy and go cluck their tongue, looks like its going to be earlier than 1 November, they said.
According to the doctor, my actual due date is 17/11/11. But because it is a planned C, he penciled me in two weeks earlier. According to the Ultrasound scans, the baby is at 32-33 weeks of age, in terms of size and weight. The thing is, I couldn’t remember the first day of last menstruation and so 17/11/11 is calculated based on a date that I just guessed. As far as ultrasounds go, I am actually just a small chick, at 4’10”. Below average really. My hubby isn’t that tall either. Between the two of us, we produce small babies. And so I wonder, the maths in ultrasound machines are based on the average size of what babies? The world’s? Or non-asians? What if it is the average of Caucasian babies? Then at 2kg weight, my baby is actually older than 33 weeks! Then my due date really is earlier than 17/11/11 and so the C should have been done earlier than 1/11/11! Eeeeeeeeps! As if I don’t already have enough worries on my mind.
I feel contractions now, short sporadic ones, but painful still, as less-than-a-minute as they may be. The baby’s movement is less jerky due to less space, but more painful. I love to feel his knees and feet and push them back in when they potrude out from my belly. I find the baby’s movement a great comfort, reassuring.
I have bought most things now. Mattress, clothes, etc – for baby and me.
And so now we count the days, and wait, and we pray that the estimation date is a good intelligent guess.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Week 30+
Smurfette is on my tummy, courtesy from Daughter No.1. I dont know how long it can stay there guarding the baby :)
Week 30
Some achievements thus far (am proud of myself:-
• I have bought some things for the baby. The basics - cloth diapers, rocker, blanket, towels, clothes, scratch mittens and socks. I avoid the colours blue and pink and as much as possible kept on the safe unisex or genderless colours like green and yellow and purple.
• I have also contacted a friend who has this business of treatment for after-birth. It is quite pricey!! Massage will cost me RM60 per treatment and I am supposed to take at least 3 days! If I want the lady to really do the whole show, binders and the hotstone and the pastes, the cost can be as high as RM100 per day. Super expensive! In my hometown, I could get the massage for a mere RM30 per day. Since I will be in confinement here and not in Kluang, I will have to swallow the bitter pill of paying minimum of RM60 per day.
• I have also confirmed which company I will engage for the cordblood banking – a public-listed company headed by scientists from UM i.e Stemlife. It’ll cost me RM4,650 but I am quite happy with the assurances that they made.
The baby is doing multiple-pirouette in my tummy now. While it does comfort me to feel it so active and ever-dancing, the jabs can be oh-so-painful too. Like right now, ouch.
The cough is back and that hurts the already weakening muscle below the navel.
The back pain is still there in the background, always demanding for a good back rub, not that the husband can always comply.
Happy, THAT i still am.
Excited, THAT i am getting more and more of with each passing day!
• I have bought some things for the baby. The basics - cloth diapers, rocker, blanket, towels, clothes, scratch mittens and socks. I avoid the colours blue and pink and as much as possible kept on the safe unisex or genderless colours like green and yellow and purple.
• I have also contacted a friend who has this business of treatment for after-birth. It is quite pricey!! Massage will cost me RM60 per treatment and I am supposed to take at least 3 days! If I want the lady to really do the whole show, binders and the hotstone and the pastes, the cost can be as high as RM100 per day. Super expensive! In my hometown, I could get the massage for a mere RM30 per day. Since I will be in confinement here and not in Kluang, I will have to swallow the bitter pill of paying minimum of RM60 per day.
• I have also confirmed which company I will engage for the cordblood banking – a public-listed company headed by scientists from UM i.e Stemlife. It’ll cost me RM4,650 but I am quite happy with the assurances that they made.
The baby is doing multiple-pirouette in my tummy now. While it does comfort me to feel it so active and ever-dancing, the jabs can be oh-so-painful too. Like right now, ouch.
The cough is back and that hurts the already weakening muscle below the navel.
The back pain is still there in the background, always demanding for a good back rub, not that the husband can always comply.
Happy, THAT i still am.
Excited, THAT i am getting more and more of with each passing day!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Week 29+
We have arranged with the hospital for Delivery to be on 1/11/11.
Now, that feels like it's such a long way away since today is only 8th of Sept. And then when I really think about it and pay attention to the dates, I realized that D-Day is really 7 weeks away. Now, THAT makes me a bit jittery. I haven't made the preparations! There are so much shopping to do and other preps too - like I am planning to store the baby's cordblood and I have yet to sign up with any banks! And then, to think that after 7 weeks, never again will I have life growing in me in the form of human babies. The only thing growing in me after this will prolly be mere germs and worms!
There are also work at the office that needs closure and tidying up before the long maternity leave.
I need to also look for masseur and maybe gather some herbs for post-D.
Am getting rrrreal nervous now!!
As far as the pregnancy goes, I already feel like I have reached full term. Am utterly uncomfortable all the time, getting tired of looking at my puffed up full moon of a face, the loonatic-kind of frequency of gracing the loo, the nosebleeds, the fatigue, the leg cramps (oh, super painful), the back ache etc. But I know I will miss each of the discomfort after this...
Now, that feels like it's such a long way away since today is only 8th of Sept. And then when I really think about it and pay attention to the dates, I realized that D-Day is really 7 weeks away. Now, THAT makes me a bit jittery. I haven't made the preparations! There are so much shopping to do and other preps too - like I am planning to store the baby's cordblood and I have yet to sign up with any banks! And then, to think that after 7 weeks, never again will I have life growing in me in the form of human babies. The only thing growing in me after this will prolly be mere germs and worms!
There are also work at the office that needs closure and tidying up before the long maternity leave.
I need to also look for masseur and maybe gather some herbs for post-D.
Am getting rrrreal nervous now!!
As far as the pregnancy goes, I already feel like I have reached full term. Am utterly uncomfortable all the time, getting tired of looking at my puffed up full moon of a face, the loonatic-kind of frequency of gracing the loo, the nosebleeds, the fatigue, the leg cramps (oh, super painful), the back ache etc. But I know I will miss each of the discomfort after this...
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Week 28+
I am hoping for a boy, because I love the way sons dote on their mothers. Plus, logistically it will be more convenient to have two kids share a room. If it's going to be another girl, I will need to figure out how to make room for three in that one bedroom :)
But really, it doesn't matter THAT much. Dr Suhaimi said in the last visit that he would bet all his money on a girl. That was at 5th month pregnancy. A boy's scrotum would only descend in the 6th month, so I told Dr Suhaimi to not tell me so I could still hope and pray for a boy. Frankly though, my own gut feeling says it will be a girl. We'll see, baby, we'll see.
The baby is going to be delivered in early November, if God wills it. I am excited, can't wait to finally meet that mystery person that Allah has kindly bestowed upon me, the one that feeds on what I eat, that breathes the enriched amniotic fluid my body provides for. Imagine a being so dependent on you, so much part of you in a way that no other will. To repeat the journey each one of us once walked with our mothers, imagine the circle to close, to be completed in such a way that only through His miracle such thing could happen. I just can't get over it! Am everyday awed by the wonders of pregnancy and motherhood.
See you soon, baby. Won't be long now. In the meantime, try not to push me too hard, ok?
But really, it doesn't matter THAT much. Dr Suhaimi said in the last visit that he would bet all his money on a girl. That was at 5th month pregnancy. A boy's scrotum would only descend in the 6th month, so I told Dr Suhaimi to not tell me so I could still hope and pray for a boy. Frankly though, my own gut feeling says it will be a girl. We'll see, baby, we'll see.
The baby is going to be delivered in early November, if God wills it. I am excited, can't wait to finally meet that mystery person that Allah has kindly bestowed upon me, the one that feeds on what I eat, that breathes the enriched amniotic fluid my body provides for. Imagine a being so dependent on you, so much part of you in a way that no other will. To repeat the journey each one of us once walked with our mothers, imagine the circle to close, to be completed in such a way that only through His miracle such thing could happen. I just can't get over it! Am everyday awed by the wonders of pregnancy and motherhood.
See you soon, baby. Won't be long now. In the meantime, try not to push me too hard, ok?
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Week 28
It is the third trimester now. So fast time seems to run by. While I do look forward for this whole episode to end with the baby's grand entrance into my life, I do feel a bit of dread, a bit of regret. This most probably will be my last pregnancy, never again will I have a squirming baby in my womb or the back ache, the indigestions, flatulence, spots on my face and the ever-persisting ache all over from top to toe. As uncomfortable as pregnancies may be, as 'bumpy' as the road (and my body) may be, it is a one-of-a-kind kind of experience, and I feel privileged by it all. Thinking that I will never experience the journey again makes me feel somewhat sad.
The baby is very active - sometimes it jabs me so hard that it hurts. But yaounde know what, I love it. It's a private moment, bonding moment only me and the baby know. I make Yamtuan and the kids put their hands on my bloated tummy to feel the movement but they can never exactly feel what I feel. How privileged is that?
The baby is very active - sometimes it jabs me so hard that it hurts. But yaounde know what, I love it. It's a private moment, bonding moment only me and the baby know. I make Yamtuan and the kids put their hands on my bloated tummy to feel the movement but they can never exactly feel what I feel. How privileged is that?
Friday, June 10, 2011
Week 18+
it has been quite a while since i wrote in here. Slowing down when you are pregnant? An almost impossible feat for me, things have been absolutely crazy lately!
Yamtuan left for Osaka for almost a week, and i am not exactly used to being without him. The kids drove me nuts, his absence drove me up the wall and work demands from the office most certainly refused to be put in the backseat! I must have earned myself brand new locks of white hair and super-wrinkles.
Just before he left, we went to see Dr Suhaimi, the ObGyn. He said yes, the bleeding was due to low-lying placenta. Ultrasound scans did not seem to jitter him much, even if the placenta turned out to be another case of placenta praevia, its position is not that difficult for him during surgery. It didnt appear like it would be a major case.
Alhamdulillah.
I always feel so relieved after seeing him. He almost always manage to keep my jitters away. If he's not worried, i wouldnt be too.
I look very pregnant now. Guesses would range between 20 to 24 weeks. Yep, i am THAT fat. But do i care? Yes, a tiny bit.
The morning sickness has left entirely. I enjoy food better now (thus why i look many weeks ahead).
I am typing this on a Friday night, at 10.40pm, from the office. I just wanna be home. Am tired, but i cant leave just yet. Still have papers to review for the meeting tomorrow. Sigh...
I love you, baby. Cant wait to meet you!!
Yamtuan left for Osaka for almost a week, and i am not exactly used to being without him. The kids drove me nuts, his absence drove me up the wall and work demands from the office most certainly refused to be put in the backseat! I must have earned myself brand new locks of white hair and super-wrinkles.
Just before he left, we went to see Dr Suhaimi, the ObGyn. He said yes, the bleeding was due to low-lying placenta. Ultrasound scans did not seem to jitter him much, even if the placenta turned out to be another case of placenta praevia, its position is not that difficult for him during surgery. It didnt appear like it would be a major case.
Alhamdulillah.
I always feel so relieved after seeing him. He almost always manage to keep my jitters away. If he's not worried, i wouldnt be too.
I look very pregnant now. Guesses would range between 20 to 24 weeks. Yep, i am THAT fat. But do i care? Yes, a tiny bit.
The morning sickness has left entirely. I enjoy food better now (thus why i look many weeks ahead).
I am typing this on a Friday night, at 10.40pm, from the office. I just wanna be home. Am tired, but i cant leave just yet. Still have papers to review for the meeting tomorrow. Sigh...
I love you, baby. Cant wait to meet you!!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Week 12
Went to see a doctor last Friday after the blood-sighting. The ultrasound showed baby is okay, in fact, at one point we could see the baby turning and showing his/her back at us. Felt warm all over.
Only the placenta seems to be a bit too low. Too early to declare placenta praevia though. There is still high probability that as it grows it will move upwards. But this low lying placenta could be the reason i bled last week.
Doctor prescribes bed rest for a week. AS IF that's even possible! But i am slowing down, i stay seated most of the time and i dont run anymore.
Only the placenta seems to be a bit too low. Too early to declare placenta praevia though. There is still high probability that as it grows it will move upwards. But this low lying placenta could be the reason i bled last week.
Doctor prescribes bed rest for a week. AS IF that's even possible! But i am slowing down, i stay seated most of the time and i dont run anymore.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Week 11++
Dearest Baby,
i discover some staining today. Saw the red tinge in the toilet bowl this morning but shrugged it off, thinking that maybe my eyes were doing tricks or it was just the bad lighting. But later in the afternoon - a good many hours after the stain i thought i saw, there it was again, worse than mere stains, i saw some clots.
Please please please be okay in there.
i am going to the clinic afterwards. Hopefully the doctor will tell me that it is nothing to be alarmed about and you are fine and happy inside in the comfort of my womb.
Please please please be okay.
i discover some staining today. Saw the red tinge in the toilet bowl this morning but shrugged it off, thinking that maybe my eyes were doing tricks or it was just the bad lighting. But later in the afternoon - a good many hours after the stain i thought i saw, there it was again, worse than mere stains, i saw some clots.
Please please please be okay in there.
i am going to the clinic afterwards. Hopefully the doctor will tell me that it is nothing to be alarmed about and you are fine and happy inside in the comfort of my womb.
Please please please be okay.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Week 11+
Maybe i should change my script (or lies, if you must). I think I look 6-month ahead, so potruded is my belly now.
I am feeling a whole lot better now. I can start wearing maternity dresses. And because of the fact that i dont have waist of trousers or sarungs or skirts around my belly, i can eat better now (which explains, the 6-month sized belly i have). i am so very huge now i wonder how am i ever going to shed off the excess later! Groan!!
Tiga is really acting up. She cries hysterically over the smallest matters. Only later to justify that the crying is only because she is THE baby in the family. Sigh.... my poor baby.
I am feeling a whole lot better now. I can start wearing maternity dresses. And because of the fact that i dont have waist of trousers or sarungs or skirts around my belly, i can eat better now (which explains, the 6-month sized belly i have). i am so very huge now i wonder how am i ever going to shed off the excess later! Groan!!
Tiga is really acting up. She cries hysterically over the smallest matters. Only later to justify that the crying is only because she is THE baby in the family. Sigh.... my poor baby.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Week 11
I am getting there, approaching the second trimester.
The morning sickness has subsided, not entirely but i have more and more good days in between episodes of face-in-toilet-bowl.
i am beginning to show too. Too early i know so most of the time, when asked how far ahead was i, i would say '3 months +'. Makes me appear less fat, if that's possible.
The morning sickness has subsided, not entirely but i have more and more good days in between episodes of face-in-toilet-bowl.
i am beginning to show too. Too early i know so most of the time, when asked how far ahead was i, i would say '3 months +'. Makes me appear less fat, if that's possible.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Week 10
I must also complaint about the frequent trip to the bathroom. Too often, in fact, I think I can just sit on the throne and pee all day long till I get thin, I can too! Well okay, maybe that’s a blatant exaggeration. Of course, not the whole day through, I will have in-between episodes of vomiting too. The vomiting is so much worse this time, my record is four times a day now.
I dont like to shower or brush my teeth. I dont like to comb my hair. I just cant be bothered with how i look. I know that i look amess.I cant remember when was the last time I cleanse, tone or moisturize my face. I haven’t applied lipsticks for God knows how long too. And the shape of my body (or rather, the shapelessness of my body) is at that point where it is too early for maternity clothes yet too expanded for my usual clothes. Nothing fits anymore!
I am just so queasy and tired all the time. My Tiga is also beginning to act up, maybe because she knows her time as the baby of the family is running short. AT one point she was crying over nothing and wailed that since she was crying, surely she must still be the baby and not the one in her mummy's tummy. Poor kid. I just hope that it is just a phase and she will outgrow it. I also pray that i am granted the patience and understanding towards her.
I dont like to shower or brush my teeth. I dont like to comb my hair. I just cant be bothered with how i look. I know that i look amess.I cant remember when was the last time I cleanse, tone or moisturize my face. I haven’t applied lipsticks for God knows how long too. And the shape of my body (or rather, the shapelessness of my body) is at that point where it is too early for maternity clothes yet too expanded for my usual clothes. Nothing fits anymore!
I am just so queasy and tired all the time. My Tiga is also beginning to act up, maybe because she knows her time as the baby of the family is running short. AT one point she was crying over nothing and wailed that since she was crying, surely she must still be the baby and not the one in her mummy's tummy. Poor kid. I just hope that it is just a phase and she will outgrow it. I also pray that i am granted the patience and understanding towards her.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Week 7+
Have I ever been this sick before? I don’t think so. For previous pregnancies, I remember the night (or rather, after office hours) to be the onset of the morning sickness. Yamtuan would be so jealous of work, because I would be fine at work. The moment I reached home, or the moment I saw him (whichever first, hahaha) I would be flat with nauseousness. I practically just vegetate in the bedroom. Work seemed to get the best of me. Family got the worst. Why? I dunno, it was certainly not intentional.
This time around, morning sickness started earlier. Around lunch time. Bad. The last three pregnancies, I actually vomited maybe 4 to 5 times a week. Now, twice a day. To help combat nausea, I have to constantly eat. Snacks and fruits don’t seem to work. It seems I need carbo. And so you will see how carbo have accumulated on my face and around my waist and on the hips. I am so SO fat! And it is not baby fat either. Sigh….
So now, on the way home from work, I would have my face in a plastic bag, throwing up and the stench from what meals I just had would be so overpowering that more throwing up is induced. Terrible.
Oh, I should also describe that heightened sense of smell. Someone would be standing at the door to my office and I would know that she uses Hazeline Snow or Syura or Follow Me or what have you. Sun would be in the doorway and my nostrils would be so invaded with his smell – bitter! And Dot and Tiga are just plain masam.
‘Nak kiss’ my kids would be pleading from the door.
‘No, go away, I will kiss you in the morning’, I will tell them.
And later Yamtuan told me, the kids huddled together over their Buku Kesihatan trying to find out what germs, what malady could have afflicted their mother.
I am sorry kids, but really, give me a few more weeks.
According to the text book, morning sickness lasts only during the first trimester, anywhere between Week 4 to Week 14. It is not abnormal to have it throughout pregnancy as well, everyday for 38 weeks (siah palehhhhhh - that's an euivalent of 'touch wood' in N9-speak).
7 more weeks to go.
This time around, morning sickness started earlier. Around lunch time. Bad. The last three pregnancies, I actually vomited maybe 4 to 5 times a week. Now, twice a day. To help combat nausea, I have to constantly eat. Snacks and fruits don’t seem to work. It seems I need carbo. And so you will see how carbo have accumulated on my face and around my waist and on the hips. I am so SO fat! And it is not baby fat either. Sigh….
So now, on the way home from work, I would have my face in a plastic bag, throwing up and the stench from what meals I just had would be so overpowering that more throwing up is induced. Terrible.
Oh, I should also describe that heightened sense of smell. Someone would be standing at the door to my office and I would know that she uses Hazeline Snow or Syura or Follow Me or what have you. Sun would be in the doorway and my nostrils would be so invaded with his smell – bitter! And Dot and Tiga are just plain masam.
‘Nak kiss’ my kids would be pleading from the door.
‘No, go away, I will kiss you in the morning’, I will tell them.
And later Yamtuan told me, the kids huddled together over their Buku Kesihatan trying to find out what germs, what malady could have afflicted their mother.
I am sorry kids, but really, give me a few more weeks.
According to the text book, morning sickness lasts only during the first trimester, anywhere between Week 4 to Week 14. It is not abnormal to have it throughout pregnancy as well, everyday for 38 weeks (siah palehhhhhh - that's an euivalent of 'touch wood' in N9-speak).
7 more weeks to go.
Week 7
Once the shock is gone, the immediate depression (when thinking of the soon-to-be-gone-waistline, and the soon-to-be-arriving- morning-sickness) well contained, I told myself that I might as well enjoy the pregnancy, especially so since this is going to be my last one (said that the last pregnancy too).
Being pregnant at 40, hmmm..
Even when one gets pregnant at half that age, the worry list is a long one. Even more so now.
I happened to be on simvastatin at the point of conception, and maybe for about 2 weeks till I realized that I was pregnant. Simvastatin is a cholesterol lowering drug classified as Category X by FDA. In English, it means, if you are pregnant, never take it and if you are on it, never get pregnant. It’s bad enough that I have cholesterol problems, worse when I take simvastatin and get pregnant, worst when I continue taking it 2 weeks after possible conception date. That’s major reason to worry.
All my three kids were delivered via c-section. The second one was born a preemie due to a case of major placenta praevia. Subsequent pregnancy will have increased probability of another placenta praevia, said the textbook. And confirmed by the ObGyn. Ooooh…. Worry!
I am FORTY! Chances of all sorts of complications increase with age. Gestational diabetes and hypertension! And the fact that I have 3 kids, a husband, a household, business, work, the garden and two cats to tend to will not help matters at all. I have never been an athlete, am not exactly fit, haish, in fact am not fit at all – I have bat-arms that can help me fly, I have a pair of legs that are seldom worked, I have a stomach that looks like 3 months pregnant even when I am not, my butts are the size of Africa continent! For someone who is not fit, the extra load in the front will really feel like a huge load. I tire easily. My joints ache. My waist creaks. My knees complaint!
But I figured, I will only be pregnant-@fourty, once. And ‘now’ is a fleeting moment, I wont be able to repeat this again. So, I must stay positive, I must look in the eye of the storm calmly and tell it, you can huff and puff all you want, but you cant budge me (I am too heavy), so there!
Being pregnant at 40, hmmm..
Even when one gets pregnant at half that age, the worry list is a long one. Even more so now.
I happened to be on simvastatin at the point of conception, and maybe for about 2 weeks till I realized that I was pregnant. Simvastatin is a cholesterol lowering drug classified as Category X by FDA. In English, it means, if you are pregnant, never take it and if you are on it, never get pregnant. It’s bad enough that I have cholesterol problems, worse when I take simvastatin and get pregnant, worst when I continue taking it 2 weeks after possible conception date. That’s major reason to worry.
All my three kids were delivered via c-section. The second one was born a preemie due to a case of major placenta praevia. Subsequent pregnancy will have increased probability of another placenta praevia, said the textbook. And confirmed by the ObGyn. Ooooh…. Worry!
I am FORTY! Chances of all sorts of complications increase with age. Gestational diabetes and hypertension! And the fact that I have 3 kids, a husband, a household, business, work, the garden and two cats to tend to will not help matters at all. I have never been an athlete, am not exactly fit, haish, in fact am not fit at all – I have bat-arms that can help me fly, I have a pair of legs that are seldom worked, I have a stomach that looks like 3 months pregnant even when I am not, my butts are the size of Africa continent! For someone who is not fit, the extra load in the front will really feel like a huge load. I tire easily. My joints ache. My waist creaks. My knees complaint!
But I figured, I will only be pregnant-@fourty, once. And ‘now’ is a fleeting moment, I wont be able to repeat this again. So, I must stay positive, I must look in the eye of the storm calmly and tell it, you can huff and puff all you want, but you cant budge me (I am too heavy), so there!
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